L*IF*E

Have you ever seen the Met Life commercials? I really enjoy them because they talk about the if in life. I tend to think about the if's even more these days,

"What if I am not a good mom?"
"What if we don't have a clue what we are doing?"
"What if I never get to be a stay at home mom with my kids?"
"What if something happens to CJ?"
"What if we aren't wise and obedient with the money He gives us?",
and questions I ask most (I blame it on my profession) go something like this

"What if something is wrong with Hudson, What if he isn't "normal"? What if he isn't the "perfect" baby we have planned on," "What if he has special needs."

What if, What if, What if..........

And today on my way home from my Dr. visit, Hudson was wonderful and the sono tech said he looked "perfect", I was listening to my favorite radio station, 90.9 KCBI, and I caught the end of a sermon on Moses. If you don't know Moses, he was called by God, to take the Israelites out of Egypt and away from slavery. At one point in their conversation, Exodus 4:10 to be exact, Moses says "Oh, my Lord, I am not eloquent, either in the past or since you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of speech and of tongue." Sounds to me like he is trying to get out of doing this, and basically says, "God I am not a good talker and will make a fool of myself if I do this." Many scholars believe that Moses had what is known today as a studder. He was afraid if he got up in front of the people of Israel and told them that God had sent him to deliver them from Egypt he would studder and stammer and no one would believe him or take him seriously.

And then the Lord said to him,"Who has made man's mouth? Who makes him mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind? Is it not I, the Lord?"

 Wow, what a reality check for Moses. He tries to get out of the Lord's will for his life by saying he isn't good enough, he is not "perfect", he is not "normal", and God says well DUH!! Who do you think made you??

Amen and Hallelujah! Isn't it wonderful to know that all of our abnormalities, all of our imperfections are actually perfection? That our Perfect, Sinless, Holy Father, perfectly molded us in the womb the way He wanted. The way that would fulfill His perfect plan for our life? This gave me comfort today and I hope that it brings you the same comfort it has brought me. (I just need to remember this when the Devil tries to come and invade my thoughts with doubt and fear.)

Thank you Father for making us perfectly imperfect. Thank you for loving us in all of our imperfections and for having the perfect plan, even though we don't know what that is. Father I pray for this baby that you have blessed CJ and I with and pray for your perfect plan to be done in his life. Please help us to raise him according to your word, to help him become the man that you have destined him to be. Give us wisdom and patience for all of his imperfections and for all of ours. Father let your will be done. Amen.

How 2 became 1, and then a party of 3!

I can't believe that a month from yesterday is my due date! CJ and I are beyond excited right now and everyday, more than once, we look at each other and say, "Hey friend, we are having a baby." And now we have added, "like soon, real soon." to the end of that phrase.

I am in awe of the goodness of our God everyday. He took 2 people, 2 sinners, and brought us together in marriage. Our pastor has been doing a sermon series over the past 6 weeks about marriage. It has been great and we have loved learning about how God created marriage to not make us more happy, but to make us more holy. I totally agree with this and thank Him everyday for letting me learn to be a better believer and follower of Him side-by-side with CJ.

And now even though we do not deserve and of His goodness or grace, He has blessed us with the most amazing gift He can give, besides eternally life with Him. I know I say this all the time, but How Amazing is our Father!?!

So here are so updates since last time I posted.

Living with GD (Gestational Diabetes) has not been bad. I have failed a few tests, and yes it is practically the end of the world when I do, but my sweet husband is quick to lift me up and help change my mood.

Hudson's room is finished!! CJ hung up the shelves yesterday and that was the last of it! I have a small pile of clothes that just found their way to us that are sitting  in the chair waiting to be washed, and his humidifier in it's box still on the dresser, but other than that we are just patiently waiting for the sweet lamb that will fill our home and hearts with joy, to get here!

I am still ever growing! :) so far this month I have lost 1 pound! That is wonderful news for me because with GD most end up gaining too much weight!

I have been cancelled 1 time at work, which is a blessing because many people have been cancelled 1 time a week for the past month! So I have only used 6 hrs. of my PTO that I was saving for maternity leave, and I know that He will provide for us when that time comes so I am not worrying!

This past monday I had the opportunity to have a belly cast made by a sweet friend, the same one who painted all the Dr. Seuss pictures for Hudson's room. She is so talented and was so sweet to do this for us! I can't wait to get it back and hung up in our bathroom!

And here are the pictures I know you all want :)

33 weeks!!

34 weeks

And 35 weeks!!

Tomorrow we will be 36 weeks and next week start the weekly appointments with my OB and weekly sonos because of the GD, did I mention that GD is not soo bad after all :)

I hope you all have a blessed week and that you are able to fill the love of Christ in your life today!